The wiring in my head

The wiring in my head
Is a little bit of a mess
I'm not sly
Just very shy
I find it hard to interact with people I don't know
So if you speak to me
And I'm a little slow to answer
If by chance I just stare
Don't give a care
I'm just trying to work you out
Doesn't make me rude
I just get a little confused
I don't find it as easy as you
Getting to know people and trusting is so hard to do
When you walk in my shoes

The wiring in my head
Is a little bit of a mess
It takes a lot of time and patience
To get to know me
As I've already said
It not easy walking in my shoes
Those who take the time to know me
Will tell you I'm a joy
I'm loyal to those I like
And a great friend I do make
If you take the time this is what you'll find
I will admit I like a lot of time
Away from everyone
But when we get together we'll still have lots of fun

The wiring in my head
Is a little bit of a mess
That doesn't make me slow
There are just some things
I find really hard to do
Some things come so easy to me
Others take a little time to sink in
But once in there it's never forgotten
I'll argue black and blue
If I know some things a fact
And by chance you get it wrong

The wiring in my head
Is a little bit of a mess
It doesn't mean you have to shout at me
I can hear just fine
Or speak like I'm dumb
"Go ask your mum, it's rude"?
I may need you to repeat what you've said
Don't roll your eyes
I can see you..... mine work just fine
Just calmly say it again
Don't poke fun at me
I may not realise at the time
But it will slowly process though my mind
And really hurt me

The wiring in my head
Is a little bit of a mess
I hate it when people shout
I just want to get out
Away from everyone
Another thing that gets me mad
Is when people demand
I'm no different from you
If you ask
I'm more likely to do it for you
But please make it clear
What is you want me to do
If you don't I'll get confused
And very frustrated with you
Once this happens
You'll soon discover
I'm very head strong
And will ignore you if I want to
Don't get me wrong
I hate it when I'm bad
It makes me feel sad

The wiring in my head
Is a little bit of a mess
It doesn't make me worth any less
I still deserve your respect
There are certain things I have to do
To make each day seem right
If you get in my way or stop me you turn my day in to night
Nothing will seem bright
My day will be all wrong
That gives me a fright
That may seem strange to you
But that's the way I am

The wiring in my head
Is a bit of a mess
My brain does work in the same way
But if truth be told
I'm not that different from any other boy or girl
I do like my hand held
But please don't touch me unless I come to you
Please don't think I don't like you
Just some times the world feels like its closing in
If by chance you see me with head phones in
Its because the world has got to loud
I'm blocking it out
Because it hurts my head

The wiring in my head
Is a little bit of a mess
I love my family
They're always there
My family understand me
If more people were understanding
This world wouldn't be such hell to live in
And me having autism wouldn't stop me feeling like I don't fit in
So next time you see someone that reminds you of me
Don't be so quick
To judge and think
That they are strange
And not worth your time
Stop and say "hello" to them
Even if they don't speak
Sometimes it may take a few weeks
One day they might just give you a surprise
And say "hello" back to you
All you have to do is prove your worth their time

The wiring in my head
Is a little bit of a mess
Now I've shown you a little bit
Of what goes on in my head
Please remember what I said
Being autistic
Is hard for me
And when you poke fun it really hurts me
Try walking in my shoes
If you think
Autism's a joke

Written by Tracey Dixon
With the help of her autistic son
Benjamin Dixon

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